friends...

i'm kind of glum today. nothing awful has happened per se, but i'm stressing out about the job thing. i'm also pondering some recent events that have occurred with friends.

one of my friends from college, whom i thought was a really good life long friend, decided i was an awful person and no longer wanted to be acquainted with me. granted, i know things are going on in her life and that may be part of the reason for the end of our friendship, but it really sucks. another friend recently was upset over some pictures i posted in a website album - all of which were strongly edited by me and i even put horrible pictures up of myself. even still, she's not speaking with me either.

i grew up with the saying, 'if you point your finger at someone, realize that there are three fingers pointing back at you.' so i know that i do have some fault in each of those scenarios, but i really don't think it merits ending a friendship.
the thing is, i was occaisionally irritated with them, but i never would have considered telling either of them that i could no longer be their friend.

then there are those friends that you call and call, or try your darndest to get together or make contact with, but they never reciprocate. i get so tired of being in a one sided friendship. but when i do manage to reconnect with these evasive friends, i am reminded of how great that friend is and the reason why i try so hard to stay in touch.

it just seems the older i get, the smaller my circle becomes. mind you, i've always had a small circle. i attribute that to growing up as an army brat...moving around every three years for 18 years, you tend to gain and lose friends all the time. the ones that stick become your circle. luckily the ones still in the circle are wonderful true friends - and I am truly thankful for them.